Interesting Week

by Baxter E. Hall This should be a very interesting week. My 12 week class starts and I'll find out if I got the promotion I interviewed for last week. One thing that won't change for me is my appreciation for life. I mentioned in my last post that I was looking for links to my family. I have succeeded in some ways and in other ways, not so much. I have realized my accomplishments and I am no longer afraid of them. I have spent so much time and energy on my failures, but haven't given myself enough credit for the goals I have achieved. I also realized that nobody owes me anything. I thank God for guiding me to this point along with some close friends and some family members. There are others who could have made things easier for me, but that isn't the way my life goes. That is why I am so grateful because nothing has been taken for granted. Everyone is trying to live their life and life is hard, so I am holding no grudges. I am simply trying to be the best person that I can be. I am free from guilt and trying to free myself from regrets. My focus is on today and tomorrow. It is pretty difficult to move forward while looking behind you. Many times we allow our demons to creep up and prevent us from progressing. We get so hung up on what we've been through, but life doesn't care. Life will chew you up and think nothing of it. You don't get extra credit in school because you were born to a crack addict. You don't get a bonus check at work because you overcame obstacles that others didn't overcome. You have objectives to complete and that is what you're judged by (along with inner office politics, occasional schmoozing and petty beefs). Yesterday is history and tomorrow is a mystery. But if you dwell on yesterday, history will repeat itself.