#BaxtersBuzz
This weekend, starting on Friday, was much more difficult than I had anticipated. My father is a leap year baby and he would've been celebrating his 79th year on earth on Friday. Actually, we (meaning his family) would've been celebrating it and he'd be downplaying it, like he downplayed most things. I remember in 2004 talking to him on the phone, asking him what his plans were for his birthday. He said, "I don't know. It's just another day." I had to remind him that actually it isn't! This is a day that only comes every four years. He never wanted to make a big fuss about things and I can be the same way. One of my goals is to be more passionate about things and remind myself that it's okay to make waves and challenge the status quo from time to time.
I've done things recently that were very much outside of my comfort zone and I've been rewarded with some outstanding results. Those moments of vulnerability are reminders that things still matter. If we never got butterflies or never felt those beads of sweat on our foreheads while going against OUR grain, what are we doing? Everyone on social media and in our personal lives are always talking about "haters" doing this or that to them. I truly believe that we're our own biggest enemy many times. We make promises to ourselves that we never keep and we talk ourselves out of acting boldy, killing our own ambition.
Family Matters - I went to two birthday parties in February. One on the 14th and the other on the 28th. These were both family members of mine. Oddly, wifey and I were the only that attended both. Our family doesn't talk enough. I don't believe that others declined invites, I truly don't think anyone else knew that their family had a party planned. I have little room to talk. I understand that I could be more of a bridge for much of my family and friends, I just don't always know if I want that responsibility. Not sure if I care enough at times. We want others to join in and "play their part," but we don't always play ours. Someone has to jump out there first and take the plunge. What role do you play for your friends and family? Do YOU want a bigger part? Ain't nothing to it, but to do it.
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